Gradual Epiphany

Mourning

How do you mourn the loss of a brother? What words can you say to console his widow, his family…his child?

I’m just a geek. I deal in bits and bytes, not that irrational world of human emotion. Perpetually awkward at parties and never quite sure of how to deal with new cultural experiences, I’m a clutz when it comes to these difficult moments in life.

If I were a poet, I would pen a lament for Peter. I would stir hearts with phrases and images of the pragmatic coder, persistent fighter. My words would capture his laugh and all readers would feel his joys, his pride of his family and jobs well done.

Unfortunately, I’m just a geek. All I can do is remember the things I learned from him, appreciate the kindness, patience and hospitality he shared with me. I can smile when a funny memory comes up and cry when I miss his presence. I can move forward with these memories and use them to be a better man.

I still don’t quite know how to mourn, but at least I know how to remember.